sorry, I'm just being depressed today. to make things worse, the stupid computer DISCONNECTED! and I KNOW that MSN is not going to cooperate again...will have to wait for another 30 mins or 45 mins before using it again..
.::SnOWROse::.||10/26/2002 11:12:00 PM

here it is....the relationship between TV and alcohol. watching TV...isn't it the same as drinking alcohol (beer, wine, whiskey, whatever.)? Draining the time on watching television programmes..not watching because you want to...but watching because you do not want to think, to think of endless problems....watching because you simply want to dwindle the time away, dwindle away those moments of nothingness, tangible, horrifying moments of nothingness. watching TV programmes aimlessly....inhibiting thoughts, inhibiting failed reveries....doesn't that equate to drinking alcohol, to relieve one of one's problems? to inhibit one's depressing thoughts? one's unfulfilled, wild reveries? one's endless, seemingly unsolvable troubles? If that is the case....I have wasted one entire morning of my life, being drunken, lying on the sofa, dwindling away my life. Why? Merely thinking of what a fulfilling life is.....never actually setting out to realise one.....because it is so seemingly impossible...in today's society. Is that so? Or am I too attached to the materialistic aspect, to break free of it? Or, am I just crapping...as the chi proverb says, "zhi3 shang4 tan2 bing1", i.e. only saying but not doing, which equates to nothing. and the practical side of me says....forget about your reveries, it is simply IMPRACTICAL. perhaps, expressed in free verse:

Fragile Bubbles

showering upon the gloomy air,
bubbles, colourful bubbles,
each containing within those invisible, thin walls,
castles, wonderful castles,
delights, too good to be true.
bubbles filling the whole air,
no, the whole air is dancing with a dazzling array of iridescent bubbles.
reaching out....
stretching a trembling hand out....
the fragile bubbles burst..
and with it,
ends my reveries.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/26/2002 11:03:00 PM

The storm is brewing...the wind howls...it roars.... The cool, light gale sweeps over, swaying trees, ruffling my hair....and I wonder: am I losing myself....? Losing my sense of individuality..? Losing my style..? Am I becoming nothing more than one of the many units of the faceless, blindly moving crowd? What is the meaning of life? To be dwindled away, drunk on reveries, or worse still, being a robot, working to hectic schedules, never sparing moments of sheer joy and enjoyment?
.::SnOWROse::.||10/26/2002 10:08:00 PM

ah, well. Yi An says I should not stick out my tongue and make funny faces at a CAR, a green, buggy-like CAR because it's childish and playful. okay, yes sir. and do tell me if you want me to delete this, yi an.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/26/2002 06:02:00 AM

i feel so sorry for Mich...feel like i haven't been helping her.. :( sigh... the speakers were, on the whole, quite good! play was entertaining, yah.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/26/2002 02:48:00 AM

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Ah....today, got a new score during Chinese Orchestra practice...it's for the SYF competition next year.....so hard!!!!! you have to change from F scale to Bflag scale to C scale then to Fscale then to C scale again..... *faints*. anyway, the computer DISCONNECTED AGAIN! argh, oh well. at least, I get an excuse not to go for Chi Orchestra practice tomorrow....YESH! sho happy! good! just heard from my (4th) kor that the guide for my class for tomorrow's public speaking is an Indian from another class.....hmm, I shall have to learn to speak Indian in 1 hour....maybe, the word "toilet" in Indian? anyone know what that is? i know in malay, it's "tandas", in chinese it's "ce4 suo3" :P hahaha, I'm being lame. nevermind...finally connected! but MSN is cranking up again...oh well, see ya later. :) by the way, I learnt a couple of weeks ago that Renyi from 1/11 lives in the same condo estate as me....the block near my house...so cool right? :D
.::SnOWROse::.||10/25/2002 06:21:00 AM

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ah well....now SOME people want to see "Angela's Ashes" due to what I posted......errr *shock; falls off chair*
.::SnOWROse::.||10/24/2002 05:28:00 AM

HI again! *waves* oooooh YESH! added the tagboard! so happy! *beams* anyway, sigh, i was about to be a nice little girl and do up and edit my IRS exhibition board......when i realised that I had left my diskette in school....booohooohoo :'( sad right? anyway, I'll just have to sit in for some scolding tomorrow :( sadness. how ah? I realised too that I have not a softcopy in my desktop....sad.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/24/2002 05:26:00 AM

HI! *waves* today in school, i skipped going through Maths paper because the GEP officer came and we had to discuss my IRS display board - had a pleasant time fooling around for large part of the time. :P :D After that, during Eng lesson, we watched the remaining half of "Angela's Ashes". Wow, this film is great. It's quite moving and emotionally centres around the hero, Frank McCourt (yeah, i know this is the author's name, but he also happens to be the narrator). Yeah, nice film, just hoped they censor some profanities. But.....later, the 15-yr-old Frank McCourt (acted by Michael Legge) is really very good-looking. My friend says his teeth isn't that good, but oh well. but.....i don't like his perverted mind. there was an R(A) scene where they showed him having err.. _ _ _ with some girl, but good thing i turned away from the screen immediately. good for me! hey you there, don't even THINK about watching it -- you'lll get corrupted, but you most probably are already (fine, sue me). :P anyway, yah, end it here. I still can't figure how to add tag-board!!! someone please help me!
.::SnOWROse::.||10/24/2002 01:37:00 AM

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YESH!!! my IRS project got selected for IRS exhibition! :D (am working on the display board) hey all of you looking at my blog, MUST remember to visit my booth during IRS exhibition okae? Remember! :D *advertisement* Anyway, I'm SHO happy! the teacher said that I could wear the sch blazer and the councillor skirt! wooohoooo!!!! *punches air in delight* YESH YESH YESH! and by the way, look forward to more interesting posts on Saturday, 26th Oct. must be able to guess why. :P JOKING! don't get funny ideas.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 06:48:00 AM

ah......YESH!!!!!! FINALLY can sign in and post some more. i thought this site was a goner. :S ah well, apparently my site isn't too pleasing; my 2nd kor tells me to delete everything irrelevant.....but that's the whole quirk of having a blog! (heard that? :P) anyway, i notice i'm lame (non-literal). hmm....i haven't even introduced myself, and already i am blurting out everything that comes into mind...and...what the! oh no! i can't believe it! disconnected! can you believe it? oh well, i'll get on with the introduction, and i'll really fume if all this is gone (what! disconnected AGAIN? *faints*) aaaargh...but anyway. yah, i'm Lin Qintan, index number 11 (think about the formalities!), class 1/12, Nanyang Girls' High Sch. I'm a GEPper :D GEP rulez!!!! (sorry if I appear extremely elitist...hmm...is that an alliteration? :D ) *scrolls down* my tone sounds so different from that employed below. Anyway, that's that. Ah yesh, if you need to complain about my blog or anything, you email me at linqintan@yahoo.com.sg, not encouraging you to spam though, because that's the only email address i care to check and use, and it happens to be my MSN email add. too, so don't make me abandon it coz of your spamming, or i'll bonk your head (why am i saying such nonsense? oh well.). ah, that's the end...still DISCONNECTED!? *faints again* by the way, it's still 23rd October, Wednesday. WOW! i've posted *counts* 8 messages today! whoa! (sorry if my maths is poor) :) (can't stand it....STILL NOT CONNECTED!? *gets impatient*) yesh...FINALLY!
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 06:40:00 AM

what to write now.........oh yah, complain about exam results. i'll say the A1s subjects (so that can haolian a bit): 1. Science -- 89/100 2. AEP -- 88/100 3. History -- 81/100 4. Geog -- 80.5/100 5. Maths -- 79/100 (not tt good) 6. English -- 78.5/100 7. HCL -- 75/100 (boooooohoooohoo. felt like killing myself by inhaling carbon monoxide -> so the sci teacher proclaims as the best way for suicide - painless. end of all the A1s) now. crying time: 1. Eng Lit -- 68/100 :'( (realli thinking about carbon monoxide. dunno where to get it. maybe break open the pipes or switch on the gas stove without burning anything. just JOKING. don't get ideas)
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:51:00 AM

ai yah...........don't mind the time. the time is bonkers. it's actually......... (too lazy to look at watch). dunno around 4.50 (finally looks at watch)
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:45:00 AM

ah. finally can write something. can start to complain :P got back exam results on Monday and Tuesday..................i cried on tues coz the results were so horrid.........:'( cass is a nice friend. i'll post another for the results coz i'm anxious to see the previous post published......wierd blog site
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:44:00 AM

yesh! seems like comp too scared of me!!! finally got published! woooooooooohoooooooooooo *hallelujah*
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:41:00 AM

stoooooooopid! you better get published this time or you see what i do to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:39:00 AM

ah! so this is how it works! cool. wednesday. fantastic! i actually posted! wow! will update when I have an inkling of what to write about.
.::SnOWROse::.||10/23/2002 01:37:00 AM

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