Friday, December 27, 2002
WHO can go play Dance Dance Revolution with me on the outing on Monday????? *looks pleadingly* sigh...i WANT TO play DDR when we go arcade on Monday...pleaaaaaaaaaase someone play with me......play alone very paiseh......*sighs* pleaaaaaase pleaaaaaase pleaaaaaaaaaaaase
.::SnOWROse::.||12/27/2002 06:00:00 AM
argh i HATE my (younger) sister!!! She keeps SPYING (literally) on me and my mother is starting to keep close track of me!!! I REALLY DISLIKE MY SIS!!! she is EVIL! *repeats emphatically* Now I do not have freedom using the computer...i feel so RESTRAINED!!!
.::SnOWROse::.||12/27/2002 04:47:00 AM
This is what I wrote yesterday, right before I slept…just posting it, to review any change in mood…I guess I was pretty depressed yesterday, sigh…My mind was rather jumbled up, and the (belated) post expresses what I was feeling / thinking/ experiencing at THAT time, late at night (so couldn’t go online again…and I didn’t want to). Jumbled up, random, brief, vague words punctuated by dots, for brief, flashing emotions, influent, one-after another…
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Thursday, 26th December:
TIRED.worn.pining.dreamy.exhausted.aimless.longing.retired.bored.missing.yearning.remorseful.broken.given-out.hoping.bored.TIRED.needing (what?).drifting…
Sleepy. Maybe dreamland (interesting, fun, varying with its various possibilities, and the mystery of the unknown, and the lovely, floating feeling) will be much pleasanter than (boring, aimless, always-waiting, content-less) MSN or (dull, hectic, nondescript) reality.
Maybe I shouldn’t go online for the next few days…there’s not much I can do on MSN…will only be drifting aimlessly…maybe? But reality…to go to school, go for nondescript, tiring, boring CCA practices…it is ever so dull and hectic. Dreams is a better option. Living in dreams? Can’t wait to get asleep…
Written at 11.14 pm.
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That was the end of the night’s reflections. Living in dreams? Where everything is so surreal, unimaginable, varying, colourful (figuratively)? Maybe in life, we need white, blank, dull spaces amidst colourful ornaments (and not just brillant, assorted colours all the time), to make us treasure the value of those “colours”. If life was just all varying colours, maybe we would eventually come to think of the “colours” as “white” and “white” as “colour”. Don’t understand what I mean? Think metaphorically, not literally.
And the reflections above…especially the punctuated adjectives and words part…(I know perhaps it sounds gloomy and a BIT suicidal and all)…but those words reflect what I feel and think whenever I’m depressed…and besides, I can’t be suicidal…I have too much in life to anchor me to, to give up this life. I want to live, I love to live. I prize life too much, that is why I keep aiming to fill my life with “colours”. But now, I know. Yet, I yearn.
Then again. Tonight my father going to friend’s house for dinner…he won’t be at home to complain about me using the computer…too good an opportunity ;-)…therefore I WILL be online…but then again, if I find MSN too boring…I’ll go offline.
I think this is one of my better posts…more reflective in nature rather than just a narrative of events…hope you think so too, and hope you find something good in it.
.::SnOWROse::.||12/27/2002 03:46:00 AM
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Today I went to my friend’s house for a mini Nan Hua Pri 6J gathering…MOSTLY girls…so anyway. I went to West Mall with Xinzi first, then we shopped and went to Xin Hui’s house…when we reached there, the others were still watching some movie (two weeks’ notice, I think) and so Xinzi and I, or rather, I watched LOTR movie 1…after which we ate lunch, and the others came back.
After that, around 3.30pm, we went and played DDR (Dance Dance Revolution)…(rather like Para Para, just that you dance using your legs and you don’t really move your hands) I took LOTS of turns on that…refined my dance skills…(LOL) so if I went to arcade again to play DDR, I won’t “die out” just after 1 or 2 dance, (wasting $2 too) just like the other time…:S:S:S Anyway I really liked these few songs…if I go arcade to play DDR, I WILL play these dances…1. El Rito (I think it’s something like that)…I was practically dancing this song 70% of the time…Jo-Ann got sick of this dance coz I kept dancing the SAME one over and over again…heh…;-) 2. Boom Boom Dollar…the traditional, classic, beginner’s (yet very nice and rhythmic) dance…I like this one… ohh, if you want a REALLY easy one, try “Let them move on” (I THINK it’s something like this…) it’s REALLY beginner’s stuff, after which you can proceed to Boom Boom Dollar, then El Rito…But anyway, Darren is really REALLY SUPERB at DDR and I MEAN it…though he stamps around a bit, he’s really good at the dances…I think he’s a natural. Xin Hui and Xin Zi are good too… Kae…enough of DDR…(I played it rite till 5pm…when I had to leave) my (h/p) inbox is flooded, becoz I never bother to delete messages…nevermind.
I received 7 fantastic Xmas presents todae!!! :D:D:D *so happy* I went to Xin Hui’s house, then received 6 wonderful Xmas presents…among which was a red, heart-shaped (pin cushion? Or soft toy) around the size of your outstretched hand…it’s LOVELY…(xinhui’s prez)…then I received a comb set…(LOL…from I don’t know who)..and a wooden craft (from Xinzi) with “forever friends” in Chinese on it…then a scented, perfumed bottle (wait…I forgot who was that)…a magnetic photo frame…etc. (sorry if I missed out any…tell me) After that I went home, and received a LETTER. *grins* Inside the envelope was my SEVENTH Xmas prez…2 cute PEARLS from Vic :D Counting Tim’s cool LEDS, and my aunt’s handphone pouch, altogether I have 9 Xmas prezzies!!! Yay! *beams*
THANKS A LOT, PEOPLE!!! I don’t care how much the present costs or the size of the present, whatever matters is just that the person cares enough to give (one) presents…the EFFORT...:-)..THANKS AGAIN!!! *feeling very happy*
.::SnOWROse::.||12/26/2002 05:54:00 AM
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
ohh yes.....have already STARTED using handphone...am mortally afraid that i'd exceed SMS limit and get banned from using handphone.....:S:S:S nevamind....well....if i'm bored...(esp at nite) I use MSN.....if i'm bored on MSN...then i sign out from MSN...(expected)..and resolve (temporarily) not to go online on MSN again...(this resolution always broken...nearly.) maybe i SHOULD go offline NOW....(starts debating)...SIGH.
then anyway, i'm going out tmr....FUN! :D:D:D going to watch LOTR #1 and Prince of Egypt VCD with frenz...
.::SnOWROse::.||12/25/2002 05:29:00 AM
Monday, December 23, 2002
yesh....looking forward to TONITE when i can START USING my h/p to sms....wh000000t! :D:D:D:D
.::SnOWROse::.||12/23/2002 01:48:00 AM
Here's a really funny song I saw on Karen's webbie...thought i'd post it here..it's a funny version of LOTR:
(p.s. sing it to the tune of "Waltzing Mathilda")
Once a jolly wizard camped by a dwarven mine,
Under the shade of the mountains misty,
And he sang as he watched and waited 'til his password worked,
"Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?
Ring-bearing Frodo, Ring-bearing Frodo,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
And he sang as he watched and waited 'til his password worked,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
Down came a monster to grab at that Ring-bearer:
Up jumped Lego-las and loaded his bow with glee,
And he sang as he fired all his arrows at that mo-onster,
"Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?
Ring-bearing Frodo, Ring-bearing Frodo,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
And he sang as he fired all his arrows at that mo-onster,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
Up came a Numorean, carrying his broken sword;
Down came the hobbits, one, two, three:
"Where's that coat of mithril you've got underneath your shirt?
"Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?
Ring-bearing Frodo, Ring-bearing Frodo,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
"Where's that coat of mithril you've got underneath your shirt?
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
Up jumped the pony Bill and fled from the scene quickly;
"You'll never take me in there!" thought he;
And his neighs may be heard as you pass by that dwarven mine,
"Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?
Ring-bearing Frodo, Ring-bearing Frodo,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
And his neighs may be heard as you pass by that dwarven mine,
Who'll come Ring-bearing young Frodo with me?"
.::SnOWROse::.||12/23/2002 12:55:00 AM
Sunday, December 22, 2002
someone talk to me....am bored. oh wait. the MUSIC! sigh. nvm then.
.::SnOWROse::.||12/22/2002 11:15:00 PM
"I never had a dream~ come~ true/ till the day that I~ found~ you~/ even though I pretend~ that I've moved on/ you'll always be my baby~..." (am playing "Never had a dream come true") (cont'd "you'll always be the one i know i'll never forget~/ there's no use looking back oh wandering~...") ("a part of me~ will always be~ with~ you~~~") really lovely song...nvm. song finished. what's next. oh..."out of my heart (into your head)"...waiting for chorus....kae..."As the sun goes down~ / waking (what was that?) my dreams~ / i never mind i'm with you once again~/ out of my heart, into your head~" nvm nvm. I'll stop singing. ...oh wait "but the rain keeps falling down~ / doesn't matter anyway" ...."feel the sunshine~/ in your heart.." nvm nvm. i luv this song! *dances to beat of music* it's nice...it is. Someone's recommendation. nvm. So...today, in the morning, i played table-tennis with renyi at the condo facilities room...very fun, lots ("wo wen ma ma wei shen me~..." nvm...oh..."tian leng ni jiu hui~ lai/ bie zai feng zhong pai huai~....tian leng wo xiang hui jia~ / dan jia yi jing bu zai" that's "tian leng jiu hui lai" by Kit chan...it's REALLLy LOVELY....Highly recommended....beautiful music and lyrics...) of sound effects i mean. sorry abt straying off. nvm. played lots. then we had a "competition". I won her 21:20 ...real close rite? :P actually i had a big lead at first, then after that, close to the end of the game, i kept missing the ball, so she catched up, good thing i finished it 21:20... :P hehehe. prob going to play badminton with her tmr.....oh...now I'm playing "When You believe" from "prince of egypt"...it's lovely too!....(i LOVE my music CD...write all songs downloaded from kazaa in it...only nice songs lah "there can be mi~racles / when you believe~ / though hope is frail~/ it is hard to kill~" lovely! bravo! excellent music! *drifts off..* *comes back...SINGING and dancing bleaah :P*
.::SnOWROse::.||12/22/2002 11:14:00 PM
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