Friday, June 20, 2003
just came back from a sleepover at my pri sch best friend, Xin Zi,'s house. really miss pri sch days.. last time, i used to look forward to secondary school, but i don't seem to think so now... slept at around 3-4 am, woke up at 9 am. >.< (couldn't sleep). but we had a nice night talk. we played badminton, then watched Simba's Pride, and i walk-jogged all the way from her house (4 bus-stops away from mine) home. then i watched Titanic. it is so..deeply moving. alas, its 10.40. there's still Chi Orch tomorrow at 10.30 am. i must not be late. so good night! =)
.::SnOWROse::.||6/20/2003 07:40:00 AM
continued (part 2)
It was then that i learnt of my aunt's passing away. it came generally much as a shock -- i couldn't believe, and didn't want to believe. then after seeing her lying in the coffin, eyes permanently closed, skin with a slight greenish tinge, that the flood of tears surged out. being the eldest among the four closest cousins (including my sister), i took them to a grassfield nearby, to look at the full moon in the night sky.
and the stars... the stars were few, rare, distant, and faint. you could still make out the weak flicker, nonetheless. the full moon -- it was pale, austere, and eeriely incandescent. a kind of haunting beauty. i could see the dark craters that marred the beauty of the moon, but added more dimension and depth to the moon nonetheless. the full moon symbolises reunion, i told my cousins. and i was wondering, why, why reunion, when a close member of our large extended family was gone. a gust of cold wind blew, as though in reply.
why do people have to die...yes, there is this cycle, of life and death. but...doesn't that kind of make people's existance somehow...as though, like..i don't know. just so...insignificant? just like the sand that the waves washes onto the beach, and then away again. in just a matter of seconds. and is there any mark, any indication, that the sand once was there? no...
my Aunt was fire-cremated. the mechanical crane slided the coffin into the metal incinerator...that was the last i ever saw of her. i didn't even get to see the flames which consumed and disintegrated her.
.::SnOWROse::.||6/20/2003 07:14:00 AM
another entry again after so long. i realised i've left out the entry on the outing on 13th June, so here it is.
13th June. went to a movie outing organised by Xi An, consisting of Veron, Nat, Eli, Sheue Ying, Faith, Michelle and me. we watched Finding Nemo ^^. it's quite a nice animated film, hilarious at times. esp the last scene, where the fishes are all ecstatic at having escaped into the sea, but suddenly realise that they're all trapped in bound plastic bags. (LOL)
anyway after the movie (at West Mall), we met up with Wu Fan and idled around West Mall window shopping. (Nat bought some lame deodorant spray and i bought a bottle of mineral water =P) After which, we went to Pizza Hut to eat. it was my first time eating pizza, in ages, haha. and the pizza meal was delicious! i got some deodorant sprayed in my hair (and had a hard time washing it off, thank you).
then most people left and Xi An, Faith, Michelle and I made our way towards Wu Fan's house. while xi an and faith were pre-occupied with playing the piano (with Wu fan's screams accompanying the music), michelle, wufan and i were trying to make a pineapple cake (which later turned out to be super-flat and undercooked). but the experience was great fun, nonetheless (my first time baking! considering i don't have Home Economics classes). then Faith and Xi An left, and Mich, Wuf and I went downstairs to play tabletennis, then subsequently, with the volley ball. actually we were just aimlessly throwing it around initially, then we decided to throw the ball volley-ball style to each other, and count the number of times we could actually pass it around without it dropping. the highest was 6! but that record was achieved by michy and i, because wuf was complaining that she couldn't play without eating ice-cream first.
we idled around some more at her house, and went home.
.::SnOWROse::.||6/20/2003 07:12:00 AM
Monday, June 16, 2003
sigh. the chi blog isn't turning up. i've no idea why. but if you want to see, do go to either http://www34.brinkster.com/snowyrose/chi.jpg OR http://www34.brinkster.com/snowyrose/chi_blog1.jpg. both are the same, but maybe one won't turn up.
i've not been checking out my site for quite some time. eh. did something happen on my tagboard or what? it seems...spammed? welll nevermind. the most frustrating thing is that my NEW layout's NOT UP!!! i messed up the html code or something. it's hard trying to put the layout on my own. urg. and i'm sick of the current layout. if you want to view the new layout it's http://www34.brinkster.com/snowyrose/defaultnew.htm something's wrong with the main iframe. it won't show. so if any IT-proficient people are reading this, PLEASE do help meee. i'm at my wits' end. no choice, what to do. i'm HTML-illiterate. *sighs*
so it's the holidays. but then again it..it's just not turning out the way i want holidays too, like (nearly) always. i've been slacking around so much. a week's gone. and what have i done? ...noothing. bleah. but hols are meant for you to relax. so. well. but its NOT HOLS with THAT MUCh HW!!! it's more like...working from HOME??? and plus going back to school like say 3 times a week for CCA?? oh well. School holidays in Singapore are never really holidays. well, at most, holidays in a twisted sense. what can i expect.
and i'm supposed to go to SICC to plan the june SwimCamp for the NYAA award thing but i don't even KNOW how to get there. argh! i guess for the Physical Recreation part i'm doing Swimming (it ROCKS! ^^) while the SKills part i'm going to try dance. DDR? nah. no lessons for that. i don't have the machine (which is currently #1 on my wishlist). there's this Lindy Hop thing (cross between hiphop and rock-n-roll dancing?). i'll go look up the web for more dance courses offered. of course i'd love fencing, horseriding, archery too, but they're quite..too ex? unless i can find some reasonably priced ones. but then again if i had 300 bucks i would have spent it on DDR (dance dance revolution). haha.
.::SnOWROse::.||6/16/2003 12:07:00 AM
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